gloom & doom

Well, despite my best efforts and gearing up in my green makeup AND my #24 Darrelle Revis jersey, we couldn't pull it off. The Colts were too good. And you know, it WAS amazing enough that we made it so far, with a rookie QB and a rookie coach. AND this does keep our record pristine - every time we have made it to the superbowl, we've won it. (1 for 1) So now I'm all sad about it, to some people it is just a stupid game, but to me, it is much more. At least I get to watch some of my guys in the ProBowl- REVIS (yaaaaay) Mangold and Fanneca. So we'll see how that goes.

In other news, still making teensy tiny baby steps towards getting the full-time status that will ensure me insurance benefits, but it is a slow going process. Which is not good, since I have no coverage of course, and my health has taken a negative downturn. I've gotten down to 117, which is unheard of for me. It also means I've lost about 30 lbs in 3 months. And we can't figure out why. While most of it is because I do eat very little because I have no appetite, the rest just seems to be too much to make sense. My blood sugars haven't been that high to contribute to that. So we are concerned. Especially in combination with other symptoms: severe night sweats (drenching) often without fever, occasional fevers over 100, random mysterious bruising, nausea and lightheadedness. But I can't go get labwork without insurance. I can pay $205 for my actual dr's visit, but I can guarantee she will want a TON of bloodwork, and labwork and possibly even x-rays (to make sure there is no infection in my lungs or somewhere else). And I can't afford that on my own. It is like 1800 just for my standard tests, nevermind adding in any special things she wants done. So I really hope my stupid job would hurry the f up so I can be benefitted. Ugh.

I got a dress for the Symphony Ball that I am attending with my dad next weekend. It is a lovely shade of green. And today, I bid on this gorgeous vintage necklace & earrings set that would match the dress PERFECTLY and look so pretty. I hope I win and then am able to get it overnighted so I can be sure I have the piece in time for the Ball. I'm going with the classic gringoleth look. (have you read Gawain and the Green Knight? then you know what I mean) so I'm borrowing my mom's gold shoes, the green dress, the jewelery is gold with green stones, and then provided it isn't raining, my white fox fur coat. Yes, I have a fox fur. Because for my 25th birthday, my mom gave me the coat which she inherited from her Aunt Gladys, and I have treasured that coat since I was a very small child, so now it is mine. And since it was made back in the day, I most certainly do not feel guilty. I personally did not slay any sweet little snow foxes. I'm just trying to stay warm and stylish. And it is SOOOO soft. So I'm looking forward to that.

That is pretty much it. Have a 24-hour theatre project coming up so that should be interesting.